is good. I sit and think about my blog everyday and the fact that I haven't even signed in lately. And then I tell myself that I need to sign in and catch up on my friends and also say something in mine.
First off, my internet provider has been doing lots of maintenance and I haven't even been able to connect online very long let alone sign in here.
Second off, I have been having a problem uploading pictures and that just makes me mad.
Third off, I have been trying to do some organizing around the house
Fourth, I have been going outside with Jonathon alot lately.
Fifth, I am sorry to my family and friends that I haven't been current and I will try to be better.
Jonathon - A Son who is loved very much, a brother to Andrew and Kenny, and a Master to Tiny Bubbles. This is his story.
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Monday, April 12, 2010
Monday, March 15, 2010
Long Overdue
Growing up, my family and I went to church every Sunday. My sister, brother and I went to Sunday School classes after church. When I was in 2nd grade I made my first communion. When I was in 8th grade I was confirmed. My parents did not make us go after that. And once we entered high school we did not go to Sunday school any longer, but we did continue to go to church every Sunday as a family.
When I got married to Gilbert we continued going to church every Sunday. Then something happened in my life and I quit going. My father got into a terrible automobile accident and died. The worst part was that he had just left my house. I was devastated. I loved my father very much and he had told me that day that he was proud of me and accepted Gilbert. I was very angry with God for taking my father away so I quit going to church.
When our first son was born we went back to church. I wanted my child to be baptized. I wanted my child to grow up and learn about everything I had learned about in church. I wanted him to make his first communion and be confirmed. I didn't go every Sunday, but I did go once in awhile.
Then our second son was born and once again I felt all the emotions of not being a good christian and said once again we need to go church faithfully. I want both my boys to go to church. So I started going with Andrew and Kenny. Gilbert went a few times, but wouldn't go with me and the boys. I felt like everyone was staring and whispering "there is Christine with her boys" "wonder where Gilbert is" " wonder if they are having problems" "how sad her husband is not with her" so I quit again......
And now onto 2007 I have given birth to another boy. And this boy has an extra chromosome. And this boy needs all the love and support any person could ever need and more. And again I said we need to get Jonathon baptized as soon as possible. We need to go to church. All my boys need to go to church. So I called to schedule a baptism and was truly hurt to have my church and Gilbert's church tell me that Jonathon could not be baptized for over 1 year. We had quit going to church so they wouldn't baptize Jonathon. So we pretty much left the Catholic church.
I called a Lutheran church and they welcomed us with open arms. Jonathon was baptized at 2 months old. We appointed god parents that we felt would be there for Jonathon no matter what.
And once again I went to church with Jonathon. Andrew and Kenny did not want to go. It hurt me, but I did not make them go. Gilbert would not go. So Jonathon and I went and then I went right back into the past of people talking, pointing fingers and I stopped. Which is really weird because I normally am not like that, I could pretty much careless what anyone says or thinks about me......Church is different. And I like going to church, I really feel I am a better person when I go to church and can handle my life better.
Fast forward to recently. Jonathon needs to find a new godmother. His godmother has not lived up to her name at all. I have tried and tried to resolve whatever the problem is and she won't budge. The last time she spent any quality time with Jonathon was before his first Christmas so he was about 4 months old. The last time he seen his godmother was Jan 2, 2009. When I try to include her, she has an excuse everytime. Soo, sorry, but I am done.
I called the Lutheran church where Jonathon was baptized(new pastor now) and explained my situation. He came out and met my whole family last Tuesday. Now Kenny already goes to this church on occassion when he stays at his friends house. I found out that he is already in the confirmation class and may come back and be a regular student. Andrew is already 9th grade so I believe he can study at home and then still be able to also be confirmed. And Kenny will make his first communion next year too. And Andrew too, I think.
The pastor told me that yes I may appoint a new godmother. And that person is my sister. She is Kenny's godmother already, but I chose her because she has been there for Jonathon and I since day 1. No matter what the situation, small or big, she has been there so who is more deserving than her. No one. And the godfather is her husband.
But first things first. Pastor said that first we must get Jonathon back in church along with the rest of our family.
And here we go again ~ No I will not go down that road again ~ I will be stronger this time around ~ all 3 of my boys need to learn their faith ~ it may take time for the older 2 to adjust seems how I was not a good parent, but I will be this time around ~ and it will take Jonathon less time to adjust, but he still will have to adjust ~
Our first day at church was yesterday ~ Kenny left at 7:45a.m. with the neighbor(his best friend) to go to confirmation class ~ Jonathon and I ate breakfast and got ready to go ~ At 8:50a.m. Jonathon and I left for church ~ We arrived at church to Kenny, Andrew(his best friend), Becky(Andrew's mom - my friend) and her daughter waiting for us. As we sat down, my other friend(neighbor) Ken came up and asked if he could sit with us ~ We were surrounded by friends ~
Mass was over and I seen that more of our friends are members of this church and went and said hello.
Andrew was at a sleep over so I let him miss church, but he understands that next week he needs to attend ~ Gilbert? ~ I don't know ~ he didn't get up ~ he didn't go ~
No matter what I vow that I will not stop! I will continue to go to church for the sake of my 3 boys! I will do anything for them.
When I got married to Gilbert we continued going to church every Sunday. Then something happened in my life and I quit going. My father got into a terrible automobile accident and died. The worst part was that he had just left my house. I was devastated. I loved my father very much and he had told me that day that he was proud of me and accepted Gilbert. I was very angry with God for taking my father away so I quit going to church.
When our first son was born we went back to church. I wanted my child to be baptized. I wanted my child to grow up and learn about everything I had learned about in church. I wanted him to make his first communion and be confirmed. I didn't go every Sunday, but I did go once in awhile.
Then our second son was born and once again I felt all the emotions of not being a good christian and said once again we need to go church faithfully. I want both my boys to go to church. So I started going with Andrew and Kenny. Gilbert went a few times, but wouldn't go with me and the boys. I felt like everyone was staring and whispering "there is Christine with her boys" "wonder where Gilbert is" " wonder if they are having problems" "how sad her husband is not with her" so I quit again......
And now onto 2007 I have given birth to another boy. And this boy has an extra chromosome. And this boy needs all the love and support any person could ever need and more. And again I said we need to get Jonathon baptized as soon as possible. We need to go to church. All my boys need to go to church. So I called to schedule a baptism and was truly hurt to have my church and Gilbert's church tell me that Jonathon could not be baptized for over 1 year. We had quit going to church so they wouldn't baptize Jonathon. So we pretty much left the Catholic church.
I called a Lutheran church and they welcomed us with open arms. Jonathon was baptized at 2 months old. We appointed god parents that we felt would be there for Jonathon no matter what.
And once again I went to church with Jonathon. Andrew and Kenny did not want to go. It hurt me, but I did not make them go. Gilbert would not go. So Jonathon and I went and then I went right back into the past of people talking, pointing fingers and I stopped. Which is really weird because I normally am not like that, I could pretty much careless what anyone says or thinks about me......Church is different. And I like going to church, I really feel I am a better person when I go to church and can handle my life better.
Fast forward to recently. Jonathon needs to find a new godmother. His godmother has not lived up to her name at all. I have tried and tried to resolve whatever the problem is and she won't budge. The last time she spent any quality time with Jonathon was before his first Christmas so he was about 4 months old. The last time he seen his godmother was Jan 2, 2009. When I try to include her, she has an excuse everytime. Soo, sorry, but I am done.
I called the Lutheran church where Jonathon was baptized(new pastor now) and explained my situation. He came out and met my whole family last Tuesday. Now Kenny already goes to this church on occassion when he stays at his friends house. I found out that he is already in the confirmation class and may come back and be a regular student. Andrew is already 9th grade so I believe he can study at home and then still be able to also be confirmed. And Kenny will make his first communion next year too. And Andrew too, I think.
The pastor told me that yes I may appoint a new godmother. And that person is my sister. She is Kenny's godmother already, but I chose her because she has been there for Jonathon and I since day 1. No matter what the situation, small or big, she has been there so who is more deserving than her. No one. And the godfather is her husband.
But first things first. Pastor said that first we must get Jonathon back in church along with the rest of our family.
And here we go again ~ No I will not go down that road again ~ I will be stronger this time around ~ all 3 of my boys need to learn their faith ~ it may take time for the older 2 to adjust seems how I was not a good parent, but I will be this time around ~ and it will take Jonathon less time to adjust, but he still will have to adjust ~
Our first day at church was yesterday ~ Kenny left at 7:45a.m. with the neighbor(his best friend) to go to confirmation class ~ Jonathon and I ate breakfast and got ready to go ~ At 8:50a.m. Jonathon and I left for church ~ We arrived at church to Kenny, Andrew(his best friend), Becky(Andrew's mom - my friend) and her daughter waiting for us. As we sat down, my other friend(neighbor) Ken came up and asked if he could sit with us ~ We were surrounded by friends ~
Mass was over and I seen that more of our friends are members of this church and went and said hello.
Andrew was at a sleep over so I let him miss church, but he understands that next week he needs to attend ~ Gilbert? ~ I don't know ~ he didn't get up ~ he didn't go ~
No matter what I vow that I will not stop! I will continue to go to church for the sake of my 3 boys! I will do anything for them.
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