Sit and Wonder

Here it is Friday morning and Jonathon and I are the only ones up .....as usual......


And I just sit here drinking my coffee and wonder......


I wonder what this year will bring......at school......


I wonder if I did enough this summer with Jonathon........


I wonder did I not do enough this summer with Jonathon......


I wonder .......will the teachers be happy.....


I wonder......will Jonathon behave in school.......


I wonder.....will we ever get over our hump of not wanting to self feed......
(he is doing much much better than last year, but we still have some issues where he is not 100% eating on his own)


I wonder.....will Jonathon do okay with restroom breaks this year.......
(teachers are changing....we were told at end of year.....losing Miss Olley....and she was the helper teacher that helped the children with restroom breaks)


I wonder......do we still have Mrs. Rhodes.....she is Jonathon's teacher and I hope that they did not move her in the school system....


I wonder.......I wonder.......I wonder.......

will my preschooler and my freshman enjoy school this year........

will my junior be okay with his first year at "Tech"...........


One thing I do not need to wonder about......
is how proud I am of all three of my boys!!!!!
I am so so proud of all them!


Here's to a great school year boys......take your time......please don't get frustrated.....and most of all stay focused......

I love you all very very much!!!!

I Won

I was nominated for an award!  My previous social worker and my current social worker nominated me!  I was/am honored!  They needed "my" permission!  Who wouldn't want to be nominated?


I won the "HOPE" Award!  I am not positive what the 2 social workers wrote about me.  I am not positive who voted.  All I know is that I won and the Empowerment Awards Ceremony is Friday October 9th from 2-4p.m.


This award is all about being a mom to Jonathon.  I won because of the type of mom I am ~ I guess.  Like I said, I don't know alot.


They want a picture of Jonathon and I.  Good luck, I "HATE" getting my picture taken.  I have been trying to go through pictures to try and find a good one.  I even sat down and had Kenny "try" to take a current picture of Jonathon and I.  Lets just say that didn't work too well.


I am very honored that I won this award.  I am excited and nervous about the awards ceremony.  I am not a person that draws attention to herself.  I do not like talking in front of a huge crowd.  I hated speeches in highschool.  I hope I keep my anxiety under control that day.


I am allowed to invite guests.  I am taking Jonathon(of course), Gilbert(hubby), Carol-Ann(my sister), Nik(Rylee's mom), and hopefully Barb(my godmother).  Andrew and Kenny(2 other sons) will not be able to go.  They will be in school during that time.  I wish they could be there too.  But the rules have changed for highschool(Andrew) and you just cannot miss anytime.


When I know more, I will post more.


Day 2 of 31 for 21 

Potty Training Update

So potty training is had some set backs.  Nothing major, just some things that Jonathon has to work through, I guess.


At home he is doing exceptionally well.  He wears big boy undies at home now for part of the day ~ he could probably go all day at home with minimal accidents, but when I know I am going to be busy doing something and don't want to take the chance of a major accident I put him back in pull ups.  Which I am not sure why, because I am very good at remembering to take him every 1-2 hours.  Minimal accidents(this is when he is just damp).  He has only been major major wet in a pull up 3x since Feb 08.  And sorry I have to say this, but this has been with his father, not me.  His father really needs to get on board more.  I mean come on, its been almost 1 year since we started potty training.....  Oh and another thing his father needs to do is get his lazy butt out of bed on the weekends and take Jonathon potty first thing in the morning.  NOT put him in bed with us and take him potty in 15-20 minutes.  SHEEEEESH!!!!!  Can u tell I am irritated?  Well I am.


Anyway ~ our set back is public restrooms.  Why I don't know.  It used to be only certain stores with certain loud echo restrooms(the mall, Meijer, Target)  Usually Walmart and Krogers are pretty safe.  Not this time around.  I spent the whole day out with my sis on Tuesday.  Jonathon literally held it all day ~ 7 hours we were gone......He would pee just a tad bit.  He just kept fighting me all day.  I even had his headphones and he still wasn't going to pee for me.  I figured I would just have to change him after he wet.  No, that didn't happen either.  I did continue to offer the restroom for the whole day and like I said he would pee a little, but when he got home, boy did he let loose.  I do not like him holding it and not sure what I will try next.


My next concern is tomorrow(Saturday).  I am going to a mom2mom sale to try and sell some of Jonathon's things.  He cannot go with me because this particular sale is located in a gym.  Jonathon does not doe gyms very well.  Actually not at all.  He would not tolerate it for more than 2 minutes.  He is staying home with his father.


First off, I am going to do this mom2mom sale even though I have issues about leaving Jonathon behind because winter is coming and I really don't want to store these items AND it's really close to home.


Second, I am worried about my little boy being left out and forgotten.  Pretty bad to say about his father, but I have issues.
1. His father cannot understand sign language_not like I haven't tried to teach him.
2. His father cannot understand his speech ~ I give up translating, I just refuse to anymore.
3. Jonathon won't ask for a drink unless he is extremely thirsty.  His father forgets to offer.
4. Potty Break ~ this is my big one.  I am so worried that he is going to forget to take Jonathon potty and he has been doing excellent for almost 1 year.  (no poopy pants EVER, and like I said minimal wetness)
5. Food ~ please feed my child while I am gone, he won't ask unless he is really hungry.


These are not things that just started, these are things that have been on going for 2 years and I just keep it to myself.  AND Jonathon is ALWAYS with me, so there is never any real concern.  Til now.  The longest I have left him is maybe 2 hours at the most for 2 years.  RIDICULOUS I know....Trust me it's not like I haven't tried.  But if I don't think you are trustworthy to watch Jonathon then you won't. And my hubby, well he don't have time.


So I will make a list of what and what nots and hopefully all will go well for Jonathon tomorrow.  One can wish!